Along the way back I just wanted to pass the threshold of the house, dreaming of my bed, clean sheets, I can open the window for passing a bit 'air (ok, even to hear the aircraft noise ...).
Eventually we have come to the house, and there was none. After the first moment of bewilderment began to invade anxiety and a deep sadness that I still have some distance left to the day.
I am back from my youth exchange, with eight days off before me, no teenager to be given explanations on everything, no dog that leaves you the footprints of mud on his pants clean ...
I thought I would be happy in the return. But me and everything 'just seemed very empty and quiet.
After ten days spent with adrenaline a thousand (not counting the preparation time that I went like a top) the idea of \u200b\u200bstopping suddenly he almost crushed. What, no more 'activities' to prepare, no more waking up late to solve the problems, no more' Award Winning Helen, Lavinia, Vincent, Siobhan and Sebastian, ready for anything, all joined in and mastered the art of give a hug at the right time ...
how much I miss their hugs ... brotherly embraces ...
Something that goes beyond words, and that you makes it clear what the other wants to be near you, although language barriers sometimes prevent it. I live in a world that is not 'my a few years now, by choice or by obligation I'm away from my loved ones ever. I have new friends here, I'm fine, but 'at times' hard to feel affection, that rush of heat that you send a childhood friend when I hold you tight in his arms.
During those ten days I have lost all sense of shame. Do not miss out on all of them make great ...
I think if I came back alive I must own them and this wonderful spiral of suffering that has' created an almost magical ... Thank you all !!!!!!
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