Three days peaceful. Three days at home, But Some moment to pack a lot of peaceful time.
I'm scared of this time, as I was scared of my two Irish Spent months looking for a job. Too much time to think, to desire the future to hear That A future for you is still not available. You try to make it, you try all the road and you know the ones you do not.
Too much time for everithing, to amplify your tought, to make alive the Most deep fear, to read inside yourself things you didn't want.
Now I know that this time is ending, the destiny is start another time his plan for you and something will happen. Good or bad, something will happen.
The time is not anymore stopped, is not anymore blocked in a dark moment.
My anxiety are not letting me alone, they thake my heart when I think I'm safe, they catch me unaware when things are not going as I planned, when some appointment is cancelled, when there is some trouble in the plane where I am.
I'm still not myself, I know that. I won't be anymore the person I was some time ago, but I'm not anymore the shadow of myself.
The pursuit of an equilibre is not an easy thing but the choices I made will make this path easier.
A moment before the start, everithing is still possible ...
Three days of peace. Three days at home, some time devoted to redo your bags, but a lot of quiet time '. It 's a time and a bit' scares me, as I have scared the Irish almost two months to job hunting.
Too much time for thoughts, too long to be desired in the future, to feel again in more ways 'that a different future for now, for you there' yet. You try to creartelo, look for all the roads you know and even those who do not know.
Too much time for everything, to amplify our thoughts, to give life to the fears over 'hidden inside themselves to see things that not even wanted.
Pero 'at least I know that that time has an end, retie the threads of fate and something will happen. Good or bad but something will happen.
The time is not 'more' firm, not 'more stuck in a dark moment. Concerns
not yet abandoned me, I grip my heart when I think I'm safe, I'm caught off guard when things go as I would not, when jump appointments when the plane on which I danced a bit 'too .
are not back yet myself, I feel it. Certainly not saro'mai who have met a few years ago, but I'm not even a shadow of myself that was around in the grip of nervous breakdown.
The quest for balance and 'hard but I hope I have made choices that allow me to get at least close.
Just before the start and all things' still possible ...
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