When the destiny try to let you know things there is nothing you can do. Also if you want to hide yourself, the things you need to understand come to you like a train, and your only option is to be run over. Now I try to restart and I realize that I try to pretend that nothing happens (is like don't want to go to the hospital if you're so lucky that the train didn't killed you). Human mind try to avoid things... but my body don't lie, and my tummy is really sore since two days. I learned a lot about my body in the last week, I've been in a training course about conflict resolution and the trainers massacre us with tonns of fisical exercise... they told us that conflict resolution start from the body.
I've always denyed my body, I've always felt ashamed because I felt unwieldy and I always tried to get a second plan role. Those are tought I create as a reply to an external pressure, and my answer has been chatch myself. When I told that they answer me that I was lying, in a inconscious way and instead my body was giving the right answer. Now my mind is looking after thousand of things, and would like to put order in my private universe that cannot be put in order, at least not for the moment. I miss the people, the experiences. I tought to be in the right place doing the right things (also if the first impression has been to be in the wrong moment and in the wrong place).
All the things happen for a reason and I would like to trust in the destiny...
Quando il destino ci si mette non c'e'proprio nulla da fare. Anche se cerchi di nasconderti, le cose ti vengono in contro come un treno in corsa, e puoi solo esserne investito. Ora sto cercando di riprendermi e mi rendo conto that part of me is trying to ignore it (which is equivalent to not wanting to go to hospital if you are lucky enough to have survived the passing train above ...). But we know that the human mind is of tricks ... but the body does not lie, and a stomach ache that I carry on for two days and it 'proof.
I learned a lot about body nell'utima week, I went to take a course on conflict resolution and we have beaten the exercise ... arguing that the conflict resolution part of your body.
my body I've always denied it, I've always been ashamed, feeling terribly awkward and trying to have a minor role. They are beliefs that have arisen as a result of external stimuli, to which I replied trying to hide. In every sense.
When I mention this arguing that it was actually 'laughed at me telling me I was lying. Not 'cause I wanted to lie, but' cause I believed in something that was not true and my body testifies.
Now my mind is struggling wildly among many things, trying to put an order in an inner world that can not 'be ordered, at least not right now.
I have a sense of nostalgia that overwhelm me. I miss the people, experiences, the sense of being in the right place and doing the right thing (although in reality 'the time seemed to be right and even the place).
Everything happens for a reason and I believe in destiny ...
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